getting it together....

Well the big day has almost arrived, the day in which I will become the owner of a beautiful Mercedes Benz. You like most are probably thinking wow how lucky and excited you must feel, and yet all I feel is this great anxiety and stress of being able to afford this car. Especially because this morning I open up MSN and what is one of the main articles " The most expensive vehicles to maintain" topping the list of course is the Mercedes Benz.  The only reason I am buying it is because I am getting a really good deal on it and to give me at least a little piece of mind the car is under warranty until March of next year. I figure I can enjoy it until then and if it seems like it is just too expensive I will sell it and hopefully make a profit since I am getting it well under what it is worth. Also I have decided that this car will be my motivation to get things going for myself and start doing something creative and hopefully make a little extra money in the process. I have started a search for reclaimed wood on which I plan to do some paintings and then sell on Etsy. I was planning on heading out and buying a YUDU which is a small screen printing machine to hopefully start screen printing like was the plan, unfortunately I looked up some reviews on it and much to my chagrin were all negative. So until I find a way to have a real screen printing set up which costs quite a bit of money and also requires space which is slightly limited here, I will try the paintings and see where that takes me.

feeling lost....

I can't seem to get this blog thing together, I guess I wonder what to write about, and now have realized that I started this blog to write about anything and everything. So today are some thoughts about how I have been feeling. Do you ever feel completely lost? I know there are some other moms out there who definitely get lost in being a mom and all else seems to disappear when you have kids. Where did my life go? Was this what I am meant to do with my life?  And I know there is more out there for me I just need to find the motivation to go for it and achieve it in order for me to be truly happy. I want to start this business and yet I talk myself out of it for one reason or another or I simply procrastinate the actual starting of it. I have tons of designs that I draw out and yet I can't seem to get anything going. Sometimes I wish I could just go back and do things all over,  my life would be completely different if I started out with a different outlook on life.